I've finally had so much real job stuff that I haven't had time for any hobbies of any kind. Not good for my health, but alas it must be done. I'm counting the weeks, days, no- hours until I move somewhere that isn't a rental house by my undergrad school. It will be amazing. I have it all planned out from my desk to my kitchen cabinets.
One good thing I have been able to do, even if it hasn't been much, is read. And the more I think about some of the stuff I've been reading, the more I know that I am a person that wants to create things for the sake of enjoying being productive in my own way. I cannot live to please other people and I refuse to live to serve other people's whims. I will teach music because it is important but I know that my students may or may not agree with that idea. I will live with people that have different standards than mine but will not give up my own standards. My thoughts need to be given to things that I value and not what other people may think or value that is different. This isn't the same as being racist, prejudiced, etc... It is living your own life. How many of us really do that?
I was excited to go to a sewing class this weekend, but found out tonight that it is cancelled. Grrr. I was looking forward to it since, as I mentioned, I have been doing nothing besides teaching stuff and preparing meals.
On a better note, I started playing the Mozart Concerto for Clarinet with the university orchestra. What an amazing experience after only playing with a pianist. And I've played with some awesome pianists. Now if I could just find some creative craft time to fit into teaching and practicing...
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